Monday, December 5, 2011

The gang up and my reasoning

Why every time I fight with my husband he finds someone to gang up with him against me. It's kinda annoying, and more then a bit immature. Whats really sad, it's mostly his dad. Drives me insane. But he does it, and I usually cave cause I don't want to put up with it and I don't want to hear about it. I pick my battles. I know whats worth it and whats not, just to keep the peace between us. Sure it's aggravating, but I know some things just aren't a priority. I do know he dosent like that I stand up when I feel it's needed. He feels like he can't talk to me any more. I feel the same. I feel like what I say is brushed off as unimportant, what I believe, and what I dream, is meaningless unless it's something he wants or thinks. I feel that anything I do is disregarded and disrespected. But at the  same time. I feel he is the only one who listens. The only one who stands beside me, when the world is against me. It's a catch 22. There is good and bad in every relationship. I think people make it too easy for divorce. To easy to give it up and leave it all. Not for me. I won't put up with an abuser, but I can put up with some one who is a bit temperamental. He just has some growing to do yet. Like I know I do. With age I hope it gets better. Wish me luck.

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

Working

I do really love my job. It's kind of like scrubs, only real life. Lots of drama and entertainment. But also awesome friendships and fearful enemies. it's an hourly job that I enjoy for the most part. A place I enjoy being a small piece of. I couldn't ask for more. Except That the drama fucking sucks!  Drama! Drama! Drama! It's there everytime you turn around. In the hallway, or down in the next office. It's crazy at times. But again, it's a job that I can put up with. A job I can do to get my pay check everyother week. In the end thats all that matters.

Thursday, October 20, 2011

Tired

I know people have a lot of better things to bitch about. But you know what. I'm damn tired. I'm going to be working 12 hour shifts 5 days a week until this new girl comes in. and she isn't coming in till the 4th of next month. I know that there is a lot of overtime involved. BUT!!! I am in a position that is underrated and unappricated (I'm sure JUST like many other positions out there) But I got to bitch. I love what I do, I love doing what I do! I just hate how I am treated. Sure I dont have the schooling that others do, that dosent give anyone the fucking right to treat me like I am something less. It irritates the hell out of me when "co-workers" talk around me like I am not even there. I love how they even talk to me in the 3rd person. For real? Come on! Its very immature and un-porfessional behavior! I am the youngest person in my area. And I treat them like the adults that they are. (Even though, they are all immature little peaons.) Lets just say my momma raised me right! You respect your elders no matter how bad they treat you. Thank you mom for making me a LADY! (Even though atm my laungage dosent reflect that! ROFL I'm mad.... I tend to cuss a lot when that happens...)